Jesus Gave Me A Second Chance
Jesus gave me a second chance to miss hell and get it right and be saved. I gave myself to the Lord at an early age, but I didn't want to follow him later, and I fell away to sin. I just followed my own paths which are the paths of the world: of sport, fun, and entertainment, and my own future.
In 2004, I started going to church as I thought this must be a place to please God in. Here I noticed a few others who seemed serious about Jesus and this spoke to me. One day I was touched by the Lord of my sinful state, and broke down in tears knowing the Lord was the forgiver of sins, and that I had to repent and be forgiven. I felt the peace of the Lord that day, and later I was also baptised in water. A peace and joy came on me when I was baptised, which was the Holy Spirit, but sadly I did not continue to walk the way of truth as a disciple of Jesus, nor did I realise I needed to walk this way, nor was my heart changed to know the reality of the Lord.
You see, I had heard of believing and baptism, but I had not heard the way of actually seeking Jesus, and living for him fully apart from my way of life. So I was still in sin and living after sports, and my own goals, and sins got me down into many grief and troubles. I had a lot of trouble with depression daily which is the result of sin, and needed help from God.
Then in 2008 Jesus woke me up. I was in a dark place in my soul, with nowhere to go, so I cried out to the Lord Jesus to help. I cried out to the Lord, "Help me," and the Lord gave me peace at that moment. But I continued living my own way and then a few months after I had cried out for help, the Lord brought me across the testimony of another brother in Christ who used to be in the occult and who had seen the reality of the demon world. He was also shown how true Christians are, how they are a light in this world, and how they have the joy of Christ around them, and how they walk in the light. I knew that I wasn't walking in the light. I knew that I was not one of these true followers of Jesus, and I didn't praise him from the heart. I was in darkness and I did not know him.
I also came across the testimony and warning of a brother in Christ who had come out of the world, and had turned to Jesus fully. This brother warned that the Lord had told him to prepare for the bridegroom's return, for his waiting people. This brother was shown by the Lord that time was short and judgement was coming and Jesus Christ was coming back soon. He was shown the reality of hell, when he died of a heart attack, and Jesus saved him to come back from death and live for the Lord and warn others.
I knew I was not ready. I realised that the Lord wanted me to seek him and to live for him and to bear fruit doing his work. I realised that the Lord was giving me a second chance to do this before the end of time.
I Knew I Needed The Lord
I knew I was on my way to hell. I realised that I needed to be walking on the way of salvation because I wasn't right with the Lord and not ready for him, and I realised that this could be the last chance I was going to get. I knew that I had to seek the Lord Jesus and I knew that I had to find him. I knew I had to seek until I found. I knew I had to make the most of this second chance. So I got on my knees and I started to seek the Lord. I decided to repent, because I knew that I was on my way to hell, and I knew that this would be the only chance I would get. I knew that time was short. So I got on my knees and I started to pray to the Lord. I repented of my sin. Then a light came into my life and that very night when I was praying, the Lord started to speak to me and he started to show me things and he started to open my heart to his reality.
Jesus Hears And Speaks
I began to hear the voice of the Lord in my spirit, and I began to realise the truth for what it really was. I realised that I needed Jesus. I needed him to forgive my sins because I was living a life of rebellion and I was not following the right path. I realised that I needed to be forgiven because I was on my way to hell. I knew that it was either now or never. I knew that I must get myself right with Jesus before it was too late so I sought and I found the Lord and he started to lead and guide me. He put peace into my life and he took away the sins that I was bound to, and he set me free from sin.
In my old life, I was doing sins that I knew I shouldn't do, but I did them anyway, because the sin that was within me was living within me and I was a slave to it.
Jesus Set Me Free From Sin
So even though I knew I should be doing right and I knew what was right, I wasn't free to carry out my good intentions because I was bound to sin within me that lived within me. And so Jesus set me free from that. It was a miracle. It was the power of my testimony that Jesus gave me a second chance and he set me free from sin. So I am using my second chance to enter the kingdom and walk the narrow way to the kingdom of God following Jesus. What are you doing with your second chance? Are you squandering it?
Since I had turned to Jesus, the Lord drew me away from Church and showed me that the way of church is often different from the way he wants his servants to walk: that is, he wants them to walk in a relationship with him apart from being lukewarm or half in the world like so many believers today are. Following Jesus today, I simply live a simple, quiet life, avoiding the old ways, turning from temptation and instead seeking the will of the Lord and obeying his commands. I no longer live after sport, and my own goals for life, rather live for the Lord. I wanted to continue working as a fitness trainer which was my previous occupation and what I was good and knowledgeable at, but the Lord provides me with work in agriculture, and helps me to study well in the things I need to know for this. Everyone must provide for their family in this world, and God created occupations for people to be fruitful on this earth including in his kingdom's work. The Lord guided me into a Godly marriage and helped me to continue to do his work.
The focus is on the Lord, not on myself, for we are but mankind and perishing without him, but the Lord is our help, and our stronghold. If you seek help of him, he will help your life. People nor myself can help your situation. Don't be led by people who are not able to know the future, nor by spiritual mentors or leaders, rather by the Lord himself so you can have true guidance and help for your future from heaven for the Kingdom.